I speak only clearly loudly.

I wrote the majority of this song at least two years ago, but only recently i added the second verse and put it to guitar. So here's the lyrics and the chords.



Intro: Am C G Am C G


Am         C               G
What about all the fights, that we have fought
Am         C               G
What about all the rights, that we have got
Am     C       G
Answer my questions please
Am             C            G
I need my mind to be put at ease.


Am        C       G
Know that i kill, But only for the thrill
Am              C        G
Of knowing what ive got, Cause you've only got one shot
Am      C          G
Hate me if you want, I wont tease or taunt
Am         C                G
You always get what you want, But now you cant.


Am C G Am C G


Am        C       G
I'm sorry for the pain, You may have suffered
Am        C          G
Know that it was all for, Personal gain.
Am     C                G
I know what you've been though, if only you knew
Am     C         G
That i once was, Just like you.


Am C G


Am        C       G
Know that i kill, But only for the thrill
Am              C        G
Of knowing what ive got, Cause you've only got one shot
Am      C          G
Hate me if you want, I wont tease or taunt
Am         C            G
You always got what you wanted, But now you cant.


Am C G Am C G G Am




on a totally different note, i'm currently listening to the new Tegan and Sara c.d, the Con. Excellent i must say. It's def. on my ipod already.
and on another note, lately my life has been amazing. I've pretty much started over, giving everyone a chance until they turn their backs on me. The people i've been hanging out with lately are probably some of the happiest most amazing people ever.

Wholly not writing for 10 days, hahah. Well im writing now so i guess its all okay. Im ubber bored, and i never say ubber. But im not even THAT bored, id just rather have something to do than what im doing which is nothing. SOO yeah. I talked to a girl that almost hates me, but she says she doenst HATE me cause "hates a strong word", and it was cool. But i know why she hates me and she has plenty reason to. Id rather she didnt but OHWELL! What can yah do? But we didnt fight or anything it was a nice little conversation about her fun singing band and how they got an offer to play at the opera house in toronto, even though they just do silly covers of bands, they dont even play instruments or write their own songs. Their funny girls. 

But theres another girl that supposivly hates me because i was friends with her boyfriend. Was because their not going out anymore. But she was jealous of me supposivly and im like "WHY?!!" cause well, me and him are only friends so i dont see whyd she get jealous. But supposivly she hated all of his friends that were girls and made him block some on msn, i was like "holy shit. harsh much?" 

Im listening to Deadsy right now, me and ____ used to listen to it a lot when we were dating, so it kind of reminds me of him? And he pretty much wants nothing to do with me, so its kind of upsetting, but not at the same time. 

And well, i think i like this one guy, but im not sure. Cause we dont hangout that much. But im going to see his band on the 4th of november, so i get to hangout with him and all his friends :) cause well, im friends with all of them!! But well, his one friend _____ might date ______, and all i can think is "DONT DO IT!" lol, but ofcourse i dont want to tell him that. But she just broke up with her boyfriend james, who is one of my friends, and well she did it cause dylan said she was gunna ask her out? And i think _____ might've had a girlfriend and she found out that ______ and him were getting close and shit? I dont even know, id have to get him to explain it to me or something. But i dont want to admit that i was lurking on his myspace, cause i lurk on everyones myspace, but still.

and im doing homework.
Im almost done my math
but then i have to do english
which is write a ballad, and fill in all these questions about it!
FRIG!
And it was actually due today.
So i like HAVE to have it by tomorrow!!
But im thinking i HAVE TO ATLEAST get the question part all written out.

I went DDR-ing with Ted, Kristina, and Daniel. Ted got like two pocket goths himself, and gave one to daniel, then kristina wanted one, and she had tokens, so ted played the one game and got the jackpot and ive NEVER heard the kid shout so loud in my life, hahaha. So needless to say, Kristina got her pocket goth.
Then i went home and Katie was watching Lord Of The Rings, so i watched some of it, then my mom came home from her boss's surprise birthday party and she was kind of drunk. I mean, three beers and some really strong jello shooters, thats what she told me she had. LOL! But it was so funny. Then i watched more LOTR and then i went to bed.

So Lindsay, Matt, Ted, and Mathias were over. It was fun. Me and Lindsay made cookies, their rly good. Chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. Accept we did half chocolate chip have butterscotch chipits. I LOVE Lindsay, me and her really need to hangout a lot more. She tells me i have to meet her brother because everyone loves him, hahah. And she tells me that his favourite movie is the notebook. Frig little brothers are so cute. But only if their not brats.
Well its 5pm, and i have nothing to do for the rest of the night! So THEREFORE i have to find something to do. But ashlee's not home, and shes usually my weekend buddy!!!!! And she's in woodstock, I also have no idea when shes getting home. I relaly feel like playing some guitar right now though, because i love playing guitar and making up songs. I should get back into the habbit of writing lyrics again. Lindsay wants to be in a band hahah! <3 We'd be named Grey Days. Because today was a grey day.

My basement tv is on, it used to be my livingroom tv, but not no more since we got the new one. Because we've pretty much redone my whole livingroom aka we got all new furniature and a new tv. And were getting a new entertainment center soon. But its weird because all of the other stuff, the old furniature, was all the stuff ive had growing up in this house, so jokingly to my parents i was like "Are you trying to rip my childhood away from me?" hahah. 
I think i might get rid of my blue mattress thats underneith my other mattress. Because its useless really, accept it heightens my bed, but i can handle my bed being low. Plus i need change. Its comming that time again, every few months, that i need something to change, mainly something in my room. So im thinking of moving my bed and getting rid of that mattress.

I think Lindsay, ted, and mathias might come over today. But i dont know for sure cause i still have to ask and make sure their allowed. But i hope they're allowed cause it'd be fun. Because all of them are fun people. And well, i miss lindsay a lot cause i havent seen her in a real long time/we havent hungout in forever. She calls my mom "mom". God i love her.

Im pretty excited for next weekend because its mega-n's birthday party, so obviously its going to be funner than fun. Were going bowling but her parents dont want to pay for the shoe rental, so i have to bring $2.36, well everyone does thats going. So yup. But they rented the allys. But i wouldnt really want to pay either if i were them cause they just had a baby, aka amy had the baby, so they have to save a bunch of money for it since they go through clothes like no tomorrow.
1 HOUR OF COSMIC BOWLING $21.95/LANE + SHOE RENTAL
As opposed to last year when we went for two hours and were bored after the first hour, lol. And were getting two lanes so her parents only have to pay like 44$ as opposed to like 82 if we did 2 hours. Frig im friggin excited. But i feel bad for mega-n, cause everyone keeps cancelling!!!!! So it may end up like last year: Mega-n, me, ashlee, sharlene, and jill. They better all go for sure. Cause i love them all. And i havent seen sharlene for quite a while cause she goes to doyle now.

So i actually found a layout that i can get to work. But i think i know why the other ones werent working now. Ohwell, im fine with the one ive got for now. Ill probably change it soon. Maybe later tonight, i dont know.
Today i was home sick, so i was off half the day from school. So I redid my myspace layout, but i still used the same images. And recently ive found some really hilarious stuff. And some cool stuff. So i guess i can post it in this entry... Im really hoping they all work, because their worth it.

Charlie the Unicorn.
This video makes my day after day.

I need a good layout that actually works. Anyone have any suggestions?
Because i dont like not having a layout, because well, it kind of sucks. And it makes my journal really boring.